brain

This is just a story of a brain. Yes, a brain. Why?

Have you ever heard of Aya Kito? A girl with the spinocerebellar degeneration who wrote diaries about her life in struggling? Well I have almost the same disease as her, but in my cases, I not wrote my diary.

I was encountered with the disease when I was around 20. Quite adult enough but it makes me want to curse the whole world for dying too young. However, this doesn't mean I put a gun in my head; I put my knowledge and vomit it as much as I can as if each moment I will die. I learned everything about human brain, bio electronics, and bio material. as I manage to achieve PHD in bio material and electronics, I conducting many experiment involving how to connecting and correcting cerebellum in human body through countless animal experiments but I can't always focusing in my experiment because I need to keep in rehabilitation for my own body. That’s why I worked with Cybernetics Corporation. they do research in bionic and create synthetic material that can cope with human body, which means they are the ones who create synthetic body for the patient that are needed, like becoming cyborg and such. They are the ones who support me by supporting me financially and assisting me in conducting the research during the time I was in rehabilitation.

After some time, I manage to create a motor cerebellum that can connect the brain but only toward the electronics. But a few days later I can't move my hands anymore. And all I can do is just lying in the hospital and my body keeps regressing as I lying in the hospital. This made me very upset.

Just a little bit more.....

Just a little bit more.......

That’s all I could mumbling.....

But my time is running out as I keep on regret. Hence, I did something much unexpected. I made a proposal to Cybernetics Corporation to take out my brain and used my creation motor cerebellum to connect my brain.

This is unethical but I just want to live. That’s all I’m thinking.

Time goes by and my body's degenerating, until I can't open my eyes. I really am angry. How dare they doesn't answer my will.

But I was wrong. When I woke up, I was already in a container with president of Cybernetics Corporation. He was waiting for me to wake up. My project was very successful. I am satisfied. And he told me why he removed my brain during my last moment. He wants me to live my last life as a human, for I will live my life in completely as another being.

I said to him it doesn't matter, this is an unethical choice but I wish to live no matter whatever form I will be.

The president then put me inside the simple electronic car. It was small, like a child car, but I can move it!

It was joyous for it has been a very long time that I can move.

But I was very surprised with the person who made the car for me. It was an infamous scientist who worked with the military secretly. He wished for me to come and live with him.

I of course accepted his offer right as I heard from him. He is a man who gains inspiration to create this vehicle after he knew my successful project. I flew to his personal laboratory with military's chopper. He must be a person with many secrets for the military even offer their ride for me.

His lab was very big building. As I went inside it's not quite spacious as it has many tools and machines. It doesn't really matter though.

He came and greeted me. We talked a few things about my project and he brings me to one of his room where he prepares my new body, which looks more humanoid. I tried it and it was almost like a human body!

I was so happy! I feel like I became a human again!

And I worked with him by conducting research and helped him testing various machines he created from riding airplane to riding submarine. One of the creations that I manage to create with him is a small shaped moving robot that can move away from my brain. What I love about this robot is I can see and hear what this robot experience and it is moving according to my though. Although the limit of this robot distance from me is 1 kilometer, I believe we can improve it.

But as time passed, the military people keep on coming and demand my friend to create more advanced weapons. I heard from them the war has come. But I don't really care of what the military wants or whatever happens to the world. I just want to continue my life with my friend.

However, the situation on the outside world was getting worse. The war keep on going, the people suffered, and more people were died. The famine and sickness of the people were increasing. The news told by those soldiers’ who comes sounds like they were the heroes trying to save the people but in my eyes they are like a puppet controlled by unknown string. They believe the stronger weapons my friends created can make a better world. How delusional. But I didn’t give my thoughts to them because this is my friend’s job to serve the military.

Once, I had a conversation with him about what he has done for the military.

Friend: I have made many murderous weapons.

Me: indeed.

Friend: why don’t you hate me?

Me: why should I? Whatever happens to the world is none of my business.

Friend: (laugh), it’s funny to hear that from you.

But he has a sad expression from his laugh. Though I don’t know why he is sad.

As time passes, the number of people come to our lab decreased until one day our lab were invaded by the enemy. By that time, my friend and I try to run away from being killed by them. But my friend knew about this before and done something that really surprising. I still remember our conversation.

Me: looks like we have come to a dead end.

Friend: indeed, but not for you.

Me: what do you mean?

Friend: you see, I have done so many wrong things by creating this lots killing weapon.

Me: i know, buddy.

Friend: but not for you. You have a bigger task.

And he takes my brain out from my cyborg body and put me inside a container. It is a cryogenic container made especially for me. After he put me, he pressed the button near the container.

Friend: I will throw you out of the sea. One day, when you woke up, open a small part near the container, a small robot we created was put inside. You come here again and take all the machines that I created with you. I have kept all our machines in our secret basement. Don’t worry, they can't find it. I’m sure.

Me: (damn! why are you doing this to me!!)

Friend: even though without machines, i can read your mind (laughing). We’ve been together for a very long time. Goodbye, brain.

And I washed away to the sea with my last consciousness.

Everything that happens to me is just like a dream.

And when I said it's a dream, I will wake up someday.

Well, I woke up in quite an unpleasant way.

A small boy, maybe around 3-4 years old hit the container with a rock in every place until it take out the small robot.

Then it chews me (in small robot view) and throws me out after he can’t eat me and try to continuously hit the container with my brain inside. It is a scary view I tell you!!

After I manage to persuade him not to eat me, I looked at the surrounding. The ocean where I was thrown has turn into desert. The world has changed completely different than I had known.

I looked at the boy. The boy has a little red and white skin. Maybe because of the radiation or because of mixed blood, but he look a little bit different than people I had seen before.

How long I had sleep? I don't know.

But I know why my friend did this to me. He wants me who am really selfish to change too.

What a wicked guy.

But I really admired him for his choice.

I look at that boy and I ask him "hey kid, can you help me?"

Since it has come to this, why not I do something for the world?