why?
why?
why?
hmm..... to tell you the truth, i'm not really interested in literature, novel (but i do love some book), or anything. i am a normal female.but i just have one problem that i make this blog.
i know everyone has imagination. and i also have one. but the problem with me, my imagination always stick in my head and that really troubles me. i always found dazzling or daydream even while i walking. it's like i can go to another world. even i always dream everyday. now i studies in university (don't ask which university), and i need to work hard to gain my grades back (my grades are falling....). of course my problem with my studies is my laziness, but my second main problem is my lack of concentration in class. when i in the class, i always fall asleep or daydreaming, and i have tried my best to keep my concentration in my class (i even try many alternatives you know!). but i still fail.......
and whenever i'm stress, i usually let my imagination goes wild, or even try to have an imaginary friends. the truth is... sometimes i'm scared to face the reality.....but i know, i have to face the reality of this world. and there are also time when i shaking because i'm scared with this world. when i'm in my fantasy, i'm the strongest, the wisest, and all the problems, i can handle it all, but in reality, even there are times i can't do something that is really simple.
this is the truth.....
i'm so weak....
i'm so selfish.....
i'm so easy to get jealous...
i'm so ....so.....sorry...... to everyone whom i have hurt before......
yet all i can do is to live on in this life....
but i have to try my best....
i have to....
now..... i have to let go my imagination world.... and my imaginary friend.... but i don't want to forget them.....so i made this blog. and actually i can just keep this blog for myself, until one day somebody told me my stories are so interesting, and why shouldn't i make a novel and publish it? i don't want to do that.....
what if somebody said my stories are not fun?
what if somebody said i shouldn't do this?
what if.......what if......
and the list go on.....
yet, i also though if somebody enjoy my stories, maybe they can understand what kind of imaginary world i live in.
besides, if this goes on well, i might can made it into movies, or even into games or .....(now i went to my imagination, stop! ok, let's continue where i'm talking) .
let's have a try, that's all i thinking. and now you can read my blog.
to everyone who read this blog. i don't mind if you read my stories, and i don't know what you all are thinking when reading my stories, but i will continue in making stories in this blog. i'm sorry if you can't understand what i'm making or i making any grammar mistakes, i'm not a pro, i'm just a student who trying her best to live on in this world. and there is one funny thing, this imagination in my mind also allow me to see the beauty of this world. i wonder what i will do next.....
ps: this is not my fiction work, this is what i felt in my heart.
-talesaga-
